today... 1 june 2007 ... went to school for extra lesson with roz who asked me to wait for her sms den go down to meet her and went to sch together... hmmm we assemble in the hall ... after taken the attendent...pass up the reflection to mr ong we went to have our MT lesson mine was in the MT rm 4 as usual ...while roz stayed outside where there were table to do her math cos the she that o-level MT but the express classes having their coursework... Mdm whong asked us to do yin yong wen(something like functional writing ...) luckily me brought the e-dictionary... (me alway does put in my bag) den we started doing... and many asked for the dict... den when i used for my last few word the dict 's battery flat... den cannot let them le... ( kalz so what loh!!! ask for dict like i owe her!!! ) den handed up the essay and went for English lesson... Mrs seah(i dun noe whether i spelled correctly but it is pronoun as cya) show us our classmate work ... she let us off for early recess because she got something on and need to go off eariler...
so went for our reccess ... me ... roz..and aini... went to the cafe... aini bought her tuna puff and me bought the sandwiches... and we sat down on one square table where aini sat opposite me and roz sat on my right side... we saw Mr calvin ong talking to other who were eating at the corner of the cafe...( and i was think whether will he come to our table and talk to us???) and OH MY HE REALLY DID COME !!! and he asked our name..( and i was thinking oh he didn't remember our names???) hmm guess he had too many student so didn't remembered our names... he asked me "how much does this sandwiches cost" and i told him... he ask "is this expensive???" i said "yes..." and he reply "then why still buy..." i did not knew what to said and aini helped me by saying "satisfaction" ... thank u really much for helping me aini... then he started asking me "this is your lunch???" i said "yes..." den he said " hmmm ok $2 for breakfast and lunch... " then he started asking "what is my plan for the lunch break???" i told him "study...revise math..." he asked" math??? u having 3 hours of math today and u still want to study math??? dun jus said to ake me happy..." den roz said " do our english homework..." and he look at me and said" hmm english ... revise different subject is a way to study... " i started "ok" hoping he will leave after that but sadly no!!! he continued with u sure revise those subject u r weaker in especially English... u will advanced because of your English..." (i was like i thought he didnot remember our names??? but he still remember those sad thing???) he added
" u must work hard ... studying with ur friend is good but u dun hav to study the same subject..." (den i was like hmmm ok ...) and said "ok..." he den said" like now opne is eating sandwiches another tuna puff and one not eating..." den i was so afraid that i keep moving to my right side... (as he sat on my left...) and ask me "why u keep moving to roz side??? is it because u are speaking english???" i answered " yes" ( i was thinking it is because i am scared of u !!! dun noe why i am jus so fearful of him... guess it was because his face look scary or got frightened by him in the past as he will start shouting with letting us know...) den he spoke" that why u must study more on your English... practice your oral and find a time to ask mrs seah(cya) out and practice ur oral ... i was like oh my!!! and said "har..." den he ask "got any problem with it???" i said "no" i was like har...... ( but i noe he said was correct cos i really had to work hard...)
he said " so i shall see u with Mrs seah(cya) practicing ur oral... " i feel so scared (i was think har.. really had to??? ... what is the consequence if i dun??? feeling frightening ...) den one of them ask why??? den he explain ... (i was thinking haiz... when is he stopping??? is so stress !!!)
den he finally walk off!!! ( what a relief...) den left abt 10 minute to our lesson... den walk and walk ... saw xiu juan eating baked potatoes...(look delicious... guess i will be eating someday but surely not next week cos my pocket money is running out... den when for MT lesson and mdm whong gave us sec 4 express paper 2 ...SO HARD LOH !!! but at least i try to do ... and almost finish le but some of my classmate nv even tried... after that we had math 3 HOURS LOH !!!(is 1hour le den have lunch break from 12.40 to 2.30 pm...almost 2hrs le loh... den continue for 2 hours) so some planned to run... and some more pro dun come...( and those who do not have MC will have DC as stated... but think if got letter can bah... not sure too...) actually the we should be ending at 4.30pm de but mr tan very kind let us us have break at 12.40 to1.15 den continue(cos he hungry mah..haha... but he at lose lo cos the muslim boy hav to go fo prayer den 2.30 den can come back... so those who stayed from 1.15 will end early but mr tan had to end at 4.30 ... sad sad but he really kind loh... hehe.. ( heard from 4N1 which mr tan taught them physics said mr tan is odd today cos he keep sayin g abt father and son... that what i heard la... they guess mr tan is going to become father or he want to have a baby boy... haha ) den went home...
and i was thinking i really need to work hard for my N-level if i really want to pass... but u know what i just don't how to start... i know people nag u because they want u to be good... and they want u to know study is good BUT i already know that i just not being tell how to start!!! all they said was study and study but how do i study when i dun even noe how i want to study or which to start first... i know this i had to think by myself but i need time to think !!! sometime i ask myself question i dun noe what the answer...
-why must there be a world??? why must people be living???
-what this world is about ...
-where will we really go if we die???
-is there really god??? heaven in this world???
-why can't we jus sleep in a place we want forever???
-earning money is that really so important???
-in the end all our thing we earn we can't bring them everywhere we go so why need to earn in the first place???
-we will sure die in someday but why must we live when we will die one day???
but some i really dun noe how to answer myself... and i dun think any human can answer that!!! but who knows??? i dun even noe whether i could really believe the person around me... haiz...
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