Haiz ...

Yesterday I thought about what I would do if I still don't make it for O ... I think I will just take what ever course I am able to take loh ... THERE IS NO WAY AM I RETAKING ANOTHER YEAR !!!

Then I been thinking, and somehow I don't think I am a good friend for my friends for I don't know why ... Somehow I kind of think some of my friends really dislike me, maybe cos I am always like I don't know how to say, is it selfish or what ???

Haiz, most of the time I said to myself that I hate myself ... Cos I just hate how I always do thing ... I always have regret, no matter how many time I tell myself not to have any regret in things i do, I end up have it after thing are done ... I HATE IT loh !!!

Would it be better if I did go to ITE last year ??? For the least I am studying with my friends ... I might really end up enjoying the course I didn't like at first ??? I don't know ... AHHH I hate myself too for always saying I don't know ... It is like so irresponsible loh !!! Ahhhh but how can I change it ???

HAIZ ... I know it is kind of a down thing to post something like this in the new year but I can't help it ... I just feel like posting it ... Or is it wrong to always follow how I feel ???

Anyway nothing good to share here since I haven't really been going out ... I actually feel unwell so end up didn't go out with my colleague for movies ... T.T Then actually going to the countdown with ros they all, but ros sudden got caught up by somethings so we end up cancelling our outing ... T.T

I guess the only good thing would be that my pay might be in within this month ... I wrote might cos I only hand in the punch card like 28 DEC ... So I dun tink the pay would be in that soon ... Of course I hope it would be in sooner ...

And I am really going to go shopping for CNY clothes ... Even without needing to buy CNY clothes, I still got get myself some more clothes ... Cos I kind of really short of clothes loh ... Anyway I guess I am going to buy a few shoes ... ~Wink wink ~... One i guess would be a high heel one ... Then one flat de, if not I will be like keep wearing high heel like now ... haha ...

I already ask Ros to accompany me for the shopping, but still not sure when will it be ... Not that I dislike shopping alone, in fact I kind of really like shopping alone ... But sometime when I really need to get something, it is good to have someone for some opinion ... ^^

Oh yeah, going to have to rebond my hair as well ...

Eh another thing will be I actually got a comic book from my aunt, she bought in from Japan ... Haha, the title of the comic is Nodame Cantabile ... About a girl who plays piano in a full of rubbish house ... HAHA I never thought I 'll be reading comic about music ... haha anyway it is rather a good one I would recommend ...